Blessing in Disguise

Today is the 29th days of June 2012. 2 more days and it'll be a brand new month.

June had been a month filled with events that had change the way I perceive and understand people around me. It is also a month where I learn that never ever easily trusted someone - even the one who is the closest to you. You'll never know who's the enemy in the blanket right?

After that fateful incident, I had been thinking and reflecting - am I really happy with my life now? And I listen to what my mind and heart said.

I'm happy now as things has come to a brand new start - and it's even better! As a friend always said, "Things happened for a reason and the reason is to serve you." Very true indeed.

Looking forward to an exciting journey in life beginning next month!

All the best and believe me, when life gives you a test, it is meant to prepare you for a better future. :)

Thanks! :)

Was just awake from sleep due to stomachache and decided to do a short and quick blog post. Received good news after almost 2 weeks. Thanks Universe for realising my wish. :)

The past 2 weeks were pretty awful and tough weeks and somehow I managed to pull it through. Should give myself an applause right? I think I deserves it by the way, haha!

I manage to get what I wanted in 2 weeks' time (as I uses Law of Attraction at the beginning of the last 2 weeks). Law of Attraction never fails me. I always get what I attract as long as it is something feasible and you are specific about what you want. It's almost the end of the 2 weeks and I survived! YES! I SURVIVE! 

Still remember in the last 2 post, I wrote, "Tough time don't last, tough people does." That's the real thing you know. I might look fragile, helpless and weak due to my petite figure and small frame but inside me, I'm a giant, ready to take on any challenges and storms ahead. I believe anyone could go through any problem in life - better still with the support of family members and real friends. For me, these two group of people are the most important. They are my pillar of support and provide me ears to listen to my problems and dilemma as well as provide me positive insights in how to go through the storm.

I'm truly grateful for their presence in my life. You know who you are. :)

OK. Shall continue to sleep now. I;m excited to continue another phase of my life. I believe great things come to people with great attitude and views towards life.

Have a great weekend! :)

To The Only Man In My Life

Today is Father's Day and I want to dedicate this to my awesome dad.

On my first birthday :)

Dear Dad,

Almost 25 years you are here in my life. Thank you for your love, guidance, patience and support throughout my life. I know it is not easy being a dad especially you have five kids to look after. You, together with mum have been awesome parents whom try your best in raising us.

Though this is a short note, we know how much you and mum have sacrifice for us - financially and emotionally and we know both of you have to let go of your dreams for us.

Thank you. We love you. <3

Love,

Your awesome kids!

Positivity

It's Friday and it had been a very "adventurous" week. Many things happened and I learned a lot but the ultimate thing is I manage to handle it well.

I still remember what happen 6 years ago. Something similar happened. But I handle it differently. I'm proud of myself. I'm grateful that it happen in the early phase of my career. I grew up. I learned. I handle my emotion well. I pick myself up.

Things happened and it cannot be reverse. What's most important now is to keep moving forward. A friend told me, "Things happened for a reason and the reason is to serve me." I know it is as there'll always a rainbow after the thunderstorm right? Tough time don't last, tough people do. And I choose to be one.

I know I can through this. I had been through a lot in life and I know this is part of what I need to go through in order to be wiser and better. Also, I'm happy that some people actually supported me through this. And I feel no regret knowing them [You know who you are :) ] Friends are important when you go through difficult period. And during that time you get to know who are the people who really care about you.

So, the decision is made and I'm going to do it responsibly and gracefully. Somehow, be thankful of every event that happens in life as they are meant to make you stronger, wiser and more equip to brave future trial and turbulence.

The most important thing is to be POSITIVE about life. :)

 "What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger"

Unwritten

It was suppose to be an activity that will lift up my spirit and feed me with the needs that I have been craving for so long. But somehow it makes me think deeper and harder on what I actually wanted in life.

Initially, I was emotionally contented and happy that I finally did something new after for almost one year.

Wanted to go vacation initially but it's not within my budget considering I have so much commitments and I need to save up.

Yes. I admit I am in stress since 3 months ago. Hormone irregular and sometimes being moody and anti social.

I tell this out to some people that I'm close to and the feedback ain't that encouraging. It just bring further unhappiness. I just need someone to hear me out. I try to cry as a form of releasing stress but somehow I just can't cry.

It's a difficult moment and I'm trying to stay positive all the way. Somehow, I just can't bear it any longer. I'm writing this as a form of expression and nothing else.

You can see me putting up smile all the time but inside, who knows?

Many people gives me many different opinions and advices and some even said I'm very stubborn. I admit that. I'm a very stubborn person. I stand firm on what I wanted but at the same time when people gives me their views I will consider whether it suits me or not.

Thanks to you guys I have so many insights to life. All in all, nothing beats my intuition and I trust it. It never fails me.

A friend said that I wanted so many in life. I'm not young anymore and some of my perfectly planned plans since high school had somehow failed. I'm trying to rebuild it again and I'm racing against time.

I may not appear to be very concern about it but you don't show your concerned face to others right? They're personal matters after all.

I just wanted my old self back - the happy me. And that's why I adapt the motto "Cherish Love, Relish Joy, Embrace Happiness" and that's what I wanted to accomplish in life.

- Side note: I just wrote all i wanted to express out and apologize for the very negative opinions and thoughts.

Of Love, Relationship & Future Commitment

This is just a random thought. A friend has been telling me about her story and I think it is a serious consideration before she decided to engage to her bf and eventually get married.

Based on what I can interpret from her side of story, things doesn't seem so good to me. Frequent arguments, and sometimes fight over their past matters isn't a good indicator. I had been through this phase. And it's a very unhappy ones.

To me, love is love. Ability to commit and go through the future together will be another issue. It needs two persons' trust, commitment, love etc to go through the life long journey. You may be loving him, but you know you won't be able to have a good future with him, and that's the time when you have to make a decision to let go.

Few weeks ago, she has sat down with the bf and discuss all the unhappiness and issues that stigmatise their relationship for so long. Just an hour ago, she tells me that the bf keep what he had promised her. It's a good sign right? Hopefully it's not a short term ones as I know they both love each other deeply and if both of them can finally let go of the issues, there shouldn't be any problem.

All the best girl. Hope there'll be good news and I want to see your happy smile again :)